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Friday, July 25yeah! finally cob webs... is all ard... and that's means i have freedom of speech here! cos everyone will tot i dun update my blog anymore and won't read it anymore... hehe... sho NOW... can write anything i wan! hahaha yarhs is def a pretty long time since i last blogged.... on the 24 may... now??? OPPS... 25 july liao lorhs!!!very very upset... quite a long of unhappy stuffs had happened... over the past few weeks....initally tot being an OC runner means won't be bullied again... haha... but is wrong KAES!! cos when OC gave me too much privellages.... ppl starts to hate me! haha... but guess is rather okay for me... what really hurts alot was what i had done for the rest of the ppl whom i tot were real good friends with me... starting to hate me.... haiz.......... just take this sentence... " stop being bossy.... you're only a runner.... i am a 2IC who are you in this world to order me ard!".... omg.... this sentence came out from someone whom i tot was real good terms with me lorhs! imagine tt....how hurting it is... to actually came to know tt... my good intention of helping became sth that was being insulted.... yesterday was our company cohension day..... went out with a grp of ppl WHOM AGAIN I tot was good friends... turned out to be a smashed mirror of dream! they did not asked me what i wan.... or perhaps i dun wan to be a wet blanket i decided to give in to them... to their choice of enjoyment... and throwing away what i wan larhs..... but i tot this might be the only one for the day... but not really.... after tt... no one even bother to ask me for my opinion... they just went on with their decision... and me... have to be a follower just following them putting up a fake smile... BUT they DIDN'T even realised it... i purposly placed my msn nick to be sad enough for them to come and talk to me.... purposly not to reply their sms showing my anger.... but none of these works... they might had just thought that i am died...but who cares right??? hahaha sad enough to come a realised today and this moment of time.... ppl always ask.... "Minghui, dun you feel your life is kinda of boring... no excitment... black and white???" & "Minghui, do you have lots of friends??".... i never once tot in my life that i was black and white... cos i still think i live to the fullest... yesh my home rules are strict.... stricted than anyone else... but i never complained abt it.... cos i am happy with tt... becos my dad and mum and sis love me... than anyone else does... that why they are stricted to me.... friends??? i was looking at the number of msn contacts... yarhs i have lots of it......... then how many had really bother to came and talked to me every moment??? beside aq and others.... ellice and the rest... came to think abt it... really seldom or none...will know when i am upset or what.... i always hear or see "sorry need to leave early today, my ppl is not in good mood need to accompany him / her." haha... yarhs... perhaps...none had actually did this for me... leaving somewhere or someone early becos i am sad? NAHS! i can tell you is NONE... cos no one will knwo when i am upset or what... just like now... i am SUPER ULTRA SAD.... cried this morning.... waiting for someone to know... BUT NONE.... NONE.... how lonely and pathetic i am.... don't you think sho??? Life hav a balance ~~ posted by x|aO m|nG on 7:16 AM
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x|a0m|ng, serving NS now.... very sian! but will still strive on! dream is to become 2009 superstar!!!! - - - - - - - - ME? YES IS ME! name: x|aO m|nG age: is a secret likes: hmmz ... chocolates! wishlist: Teddy bears NS ends faster SCORE WELL get into good company more friends - - - - - - - - EXIT FOR DANGER! LINKYS LINKYS LINKYS LINKYS - - - - - - - - - SHOUT OUT HERE! designed by: Blackey |
