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Sunday, October 14o gosh...my last day at home again! ppl asking me how's rifleman training? SHIONG hor? i was like... trying to bluff myself again... "NOT REALLY LARHS..... seems quite slack to me" actually is NOT.... o please..... i this kind of ppl.... says not shiong.... confirm is bluff ppl de lehs! haiz..... i still quite reluctant to go back today!....is not sian or what.... is the fear.... i also tot that it might be becos i rest too long... sian to go back.... but i know it isn't.... i still fear of going back to that environment...not just the ppl...the environment the type of training i am going to receive!!!!! o please...if someone is kind enough can save me? AND HELP ME.... please!!!! This is an addtional post...! i just woke up from a nap! was it? not really.... can't really get into sleep..... all my mind is thinking.... and thinking.... i know you guys will say i have been thinking too much.... but i seriously hate to go back... i dun wan to go back.... i wan to be out of there.... no rifle man for me.... do any one understand my feeling? I had been doing 善事 for sho many yrs of my life.... whatever retribution that shld fall on me... shld have already casted on me... why am i still suffering this... is 2 yr ... i seriously dun wan this 2 yr to be miserable.... then when ppl asked me... what is pulling me back... i not even sure... i tot was the ppl... then again i added on... could it be the environment too! NOW? i dun even know what's had been the fear factor in me! for all i know i only wan to be out of there.... i dun wan to stay there anymore! not even for a second more.... but can't tml i will be out for field camp.... i tot i was like mentally prepared... then come to think again.... most proably i had been thinking too much... i am still not physically prepared... needless to say even my mental state now! Life hav a balance ~~ posted by x|aO m|nG on 8:28 PM
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x|a0m|ng, serving NS now.... very sian! but will still strive on! dream is to become 2009 superstar!!!! - - - - - - - - ME? YES IS ME! name: x|aO m|nG age: is a secret likes: hmmz ... chocolates! wishlist: Teddy bears NS ends faster SCORE WELL get into good company more friends - - - - - - - - EXIT FOR DANGER! LINKYS LINKYS LINKYS LINKYS - - - - - - - - - SHOUT OUT HERE! designed by: Blackey |
